Jiron

I got the call today. Numbing I have 2 days to come up with $1000.00, leave the country, claim his body and my inheritance before a woman who he married 2 years ago and only lived with for 2 weeks completes her con. Intensely numbing. Praying

These are the kind of posts that leads to defamation of character! Count the cost and STAND! From: Cher Loves, Forgives and speaks Blessings on E. T. Date: Nov 29, 2007 12:52 PM Subject: Ninety-Five Theses to the door of the Wittenberg Church - Body: Martin Luther declared that "by grace are we saved not by works", that salvation was attainable only by faith in Jesus as the Messiah, a faith unmediated by the church. Grace is a standard doctrine today. Thank you Martin for your stand. Our NEXT stage of development is in the area of FREEDOM!!! Gal 5:1 It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. Despite what many may think; walking in FREEDOM.. is NOT equivalent to walking in Rebellion. It is very clear that the church's role has boundaries . It is necessary for any healthy church to only instruct and correct in the areas of black and white based on biblical truth.(Please note: black ...

When I worked as sushi restaurant manager, I had to be all smiles and develop a "regular customer" base. I remember how shallow it felt. Even though part of me wanted to know the people, I knew I NEVER really would. But it was my JOB to make them feel welcome and like I really cared about their lives and their families and it became my "job" to know all about them.However, when I quit the job and started working in accounting at my current place of employment; I did not stay in touch with anyone,nor was it expected that I should. None of it was REALLY real. It was just business and marketing. I wonder sometimes if this is how a minister feels. He has to develop regular "customers" too, doesn't he? How much of ministry is a "job" and how much of it is an actual connection between believers? When I see people "in the ministry", I often catch myself wondering if I should really bother being friends with them, or will the relationship b...

I've been here for over 12 hours now. Alone in the office building. And at least another 2 hours of work in front of me. How do I feel? VERY alone. No one to care if I stay up late. No one to bring me a cup of coffee. No one cheering me on. Alone. Now I know... For every niche, there is loneliness. The more responsible I get.. the less I have around me to share the responsibility. Responsibility... A hard word to swallow. For me, it's the biggest word of my life. God has given me MUCH to care for.. SO MUCH. I am beginning to understand the race now. I am beginning to understand that often when we push for a higher place.. we have to sacrifice a lower life. No buddies, no drinking, no partying, no dating, no ease... pressing, pressing, pressing.. to be a better person than my mother.. and set a higher platform for my children to leap from. Loneliness is a small price to pay for such a goal. Right?

What an awesome arm bar!! How is it, after watching UFC ultimate fighting for 3 hours just to pass time and can't wait until the lightweight championship between Phillipe and Efrain comes on, finally the match begins... and the roommate comes and wants to talk about groceries... grrr... She picks on me for being more like her husband than a woman. I have no idea why I have such seemingly masculine characteristics. But I can see where she is coming from. I work and provide, pay all the bills and groceries. I would rather think to myself than talk alot of small talk. I love Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and mixed martial arts (even though I am just a white belt). I also play the trumpet and was never drawn to the flute and reed instruments. And have hated stockings and dresses ALL MY LIFE. I like my music to be hard and heavy. I like short hair over long and generally would rather be alone than be bossed around by a man. All I know is, I had 3 husbands all complain about the same thing, my bei...

Last Night I dreamt of triplets. 2 were strong and healthy, but one was small, weak and deformed. The 3 stayed together constantly. The stronger one would carry the weaker. They prayed together often and were a powerful team that could not be separated. Then something changed. While in a raft in the water. The stronger 2 would go out in to the water to swim and rescue people. The weaker one became angry and jealous about the abilities of the stronger brothers. He started throwing black cables at his brothers trying to drown them. The brothers were startled at first but then began to realize that the 3rd brother had turned on them. They began to swim away to find another raft. The deformed brother began attacking the healthy brothers through dark methods. He would use other people's eyes to see them and find them; and invade the bodies of other people to use them to attack the healthy brothers. The sad part of the dream was that the healthy brothers continued to love the deformed tr...

So many things have been passing through my mind lately. I have found myself detached from normal life. Accepting my place, accepting my race. Running alone. It's not easy. I have finally reached a point in my life... Just as a woman who can not conceive a child without miscarrying That I am tired of looking at other people's family photos and feeling pain. I will not have the "perfect" image of family in my life. I will not have a husband to share living with. After 3 miscarried marriages... I throw in the towel. I quit and I accept the oddness of it. The freakish nature of single motherhood. Don't think I can't feel people wondering "how I do it?" Or people wondering what's wrong with me for failing 3 times. Or people just being disgusted that I "bailed out" on marriage s . I have no idea why my first husband turned away from me and toward drugs. I have no idea why my second husband fell in love with my best friend. I have no idea why...