Jiron

February 23, 2022, at the age of 49, I found out that my biological father was alive and well and living in Costa Rica. This discovery came to pass through Ancestry.com. It was an amazing and beautiful discovery.   As soon I was able, I took vacation time from work and booked a flight to Costa Rica to meet my FATHER. On October 25, 2022 we met in Escazu Costa Rica. The plan was for me to originally stay with Crystal (my stepmother) and my dad for a week for me to learn more about him. The night before my flight, after speaking with Crystal, I felt like something was “off” and decided to stay at another location during my time in Costa Rica.  I covered my own flight and housing during my stay from October 24th - October 31st. During this time we met for 2 dinners. Crystal was insistent that there was no way my father knew of my existence. She also told me that the only explanation for my existence was that my mother must have been a prostitute. But also insisted that my father ...

I was taught that it was wrong for Christians to be hurt... I was told that dead people don't GET hurt... so to be dead (to our sin nature) in Christ means to never be offended. That lead to a spiral of denial like you would not believe.  I found myself wearing a hyper-spiritual mask that floated around and had only sage words of wisdom and never expressed negative emotions. ..... then my sand castle fell when I got married. My husband would make me angry and I had no idea how to handle it! There was no way to avoid him, no where to escape, and shutting down was only a temporary fix. My protective mask was stripped and I forced myself to handle conflict and to learned not to be afraid to express things like anger, disappointment,  offense, and indignation. I had to teach myself how to communicate all these dark emotions in a respectful manner and am now very grateful for the experience & practice. Unfortunately, I found that outside of my marriage this sort of honesty ...